You know, like maybe a car accident that you survive, but are in the hospital for a few days.
Insert ["WHY would someone want that!? How terrible! Omg! Etc!" ]
On those days, I remember I was desperate for rest. And something to truly stop the train of my life that felt out of my control. I needed a reset, something to force my hand.
I craved for "life" to show itself to me, so maybe I would finally understand what it's worth, what the point of it was, for me.
I craved for life to look me in the eye.
Sometimes life does give people a look in this way; an accident, a disease, the death of a loved one. Many people are faced with wake-up calls like these, without the grace of any explanation.
Thankfully, sometimes they're more optimistic calls; a serendipitous career opportunity, required relocation, the birth of a child, the new reality of college graduation.
What kind of wake-up calls have you been given?
What are the events in your life that truly required you to make a new choice?
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I've always claimed to "transition slowly".
It "took me a while" to make new choices and settle into them - after high school graduation, after college graduation, after the end of a long-term relationship, after I first met the person who'd become my partner forever.
I'm grateful to know this about myself, now anyway. Before I did, there were many years of angst over what my problem was.
I feel like…. I transition quickly on the outside and very slowly on the inside.
On the outside, I impatiently plan the logistics, turn the switches, make the choices, take action.
On the inside, I carry questions in my gut for months. In some cases, years.
Every now and then, I stop and pick out one of those questions to think about. I really chew on the new circumstance and come to peace with each one. Slowly.
Truly, it's somewhat irritating.
The over-achiever in me doesn't like this long, drawn-out thinker in me.
I'm living with both motives, but the more I know about each of them, the more rewarding this life experience becomes.
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How do you process change? I'm beginning to grip that there isn't a right way and there's certainly no reason to create rules for yourself around how it should look.
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